thank you

To those of you who commented, who emailed me, who sent me messages on Facebook and Twitter, and to those of you who bore witness by reading what I wrote, thank you.

This is the most free of it all I have felt, since it happened.

I thought the idea of talking through it was ridiculous, when therapists brought it up, but I think maybe I just wasn't ready. Since posting last night I have been able to think about what happened while remaining fully present in the here and now. I worked hard at keeping it separate from myself and from my life. But now, suddenly, it seems like it's integrated and I'm actually comfortable with that.

Anyway, thank you. I don't know if the flashbacks will ever stop but maybe this has neutralized them. Neutered them.