This afternoon at my house was a little bit "Lord of the Flies"-ish. Eventually I had 11 children here, and they spent most of their time all clumped up on the very small front porch. I was afraid they'd knock out a support pillar and the roof would come crashing down on them all.
At one point my boys + three neighborhood friends were chasing Isabelle the cat with sticks, trying to surround her... I'm not sure what the ultimate goal was (we're talking 3 5-year-olds and two just slightly older) but judging by the wicked gleams I saw in their eyes I'm thinking the boys had planned a meal of roast cat, to be enjoyed while sewing catskin slippers.
Later, as I packed sandwiches for our soccer practice dinner, my boys and Haney lifted the lid from the fire pit and had a soot-and-ash fight.
I spanked the boys following the ash fight, and they laughed at me.
I cried. But not right away. I cried after we got to soccer practice and I made us all stay in the car because I didn't trust that I could wrangle them/didn't want to reward them with the playground, and the three of them chanted, "You are dumb and you are weak! You are dumb and we are great!" over and over. I cried. What a dumbass. But I just love them so much and I want them to love me back, and when they are this bad I feel like they must not care about me at all.
Ugh. They're a couple of dumb 5 year olds. Is it possible I'm over-analyzing this a smidge?
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I'm kind of speechless, that last part was kind of heartbreaking and I don't know what I would do/will do if my kids ever do something like that. You're an awesome mom, they may not appreciate you all the time now.. but some day and hopefully before they have their own kids.
ReplyDeleteYou're not analyzing it at all! You're just feeling how suckish that whole interlude was. Been there, complete with tears. Let that suckish evening fade into nothingness. Tell them tomorrow that it hurts you to hear stuff like that. Have a glass of wine, RIGHT NOW. Be good to yourself. You did the right thing.
ReplyDeleteMan, that does sound like a rough day. I'm hoping you had that glass of wine. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI am consistently in awe over the antics of boys, especially 2+ boys working together. Wow.
Sometimes kids are just plain brats!......
ReplyDeleteHope you enjoyed the wine when you finally got it.
They do love you - they just can't see the bigger picture until they are older (married, with their own kids). Right now they just live in the moment and you bear the brunt. Sorry, it sucks.
ReplyDeleteOh boy, those are hard words to hear. I'm sorry. If it is any consolation my 4 year old called me an idiot the other day. I rewarded her with a brisk trip to time-out. I wasn't outnumbered though and I cried later. I'm sure you're a great mom and I'm sure your kids will realize that one day too.
ReplyDeleteHappy post-Mother's Day Jen! Those kids love you tons, they just won't know how much until they have little brats of their own.
ReplyDeleteholyshit. boy, when i miss something, i do it big.
ReplyDeletethe kids are total punks and i have one of those too. the moments of 'not-punk' are great, but far outnumbered.
hang in there, mama. they are growing. just like newborn crap, it'll change ...